sephirajo: (reaching)
So, I am back from the great Jocation. It was fun. I got to spend time with people and had less of an excuse to be a total recluse. I'm exhausted as all fuck now, but in other good news Raevn, my stepdaughter, will be spending the year with us, and hopefully more. Yay!

In things that I hate, I lost a tooth, one of the front ones, and got a replacement for it. It's really hard to explain how much it bothers me, like literally one of my worst fears. I guess that makes me kind of crazy for even bringing it up. :/ But I am now the Great Toothless Hag.

I've also started to get back in to fic writing. And writing in general. And gaming.

It's really hard to explain the complete kick-in-the-stomach reaction I've had to these things the last few years. It's like staring down Godzilla with a feather duster for a weapon. It doesn't always go well, but I am trying.

I've been working on a couple of dragon age fics, and mostly one with my Amell warden and Alistair and their relationship kind of falling apart. It's getting really long in the first chapter, so I'm kind of looking for good places to break it. I think I got to a good place, but I don't know?

Anyway, it's at the bottom here if anyone wants to read it. Feedback would mean a lot... and I even feel bad asking for that. :/ After all it's pretty long and stuff, and so far we have Alistair, Leliana, Zevran, Morrigan and Arl Eamon. Oh, and a streaking dwarf. And 8k + words. >__< I hope it's good.

Alistair, there isn’t a prince in the whole of creation that takes off his own armor. )
sephirajo: (Han Renminise)
Recently, overtly disgusted with Orson Scott Card's politics to the point where I can no longer stomach ANYTHING the man has ever done, I'm auctioning off a book of his. The book is a signed copy of Characters and Viewpoint that I bought back when I started college.

All the money I get from this is going to go to a charity of the winner's choice, so please pass this on.

Here's the auction.
sephirajo: (sexy anime redhead)
And the winner is Naked Bank Robbers. You guys are all perverts and I love you all.

Here's a bit from the start! Remember, this is quantity over quality:

Like yours are any better, you're going to put someone's eye out. )
sephirajo: (Rosette Bday Pres)
[Poll #1478693]
sephirajo: (Fragile... must be italin.)
Okay, I have a few minutes before I have to leave for work. (A bit of good news, I missed my account metric by one yesterday, so that's good.)

ETA: This just applies to writing communities. Especially ones that say they're there for feedback. The offending coms will remain unnamed. I realize this wasn't totally clear earlier. ^.^ I know peeps read what I tack up here and I bounce people for feedback over AIM if I need it. :3

In case this gets a bit emo. Also: Feedback and me. )

And now, for the uncut part of this.
*giggles*

Uncut. Yeah, I'm four today.

I am seriously getting to the point where I'm going to stop posting fiction and writing, be it fan or original ANYWHERE. A, as in one and singular, sort of acknowledgment would be nice.

I think it's almost sort of sad when I get more feedback on a board for a select group of maybe thirty people that constitute an entire reading community than I do when posting to an LJ writing com or anywhere else.

This wouldn't bother me so much if I didn't see everyone else get slathered in comments like butter.

How does this work? Seriously?

...Which makes me want apple butter, damnit, now I'm hungry.
sephirajo: (real for us)
I forgot to tack this up here. But chapter 2 of my dorky side project is done and can be downloaded from my deviant art site here. It has has a link to chapter 1 and the viewer you need to run the stories.
sephirajo: (Sharksplode!)
I am not comfortable as my role in the invisible, easily snubbed girl. I need something to do.

I want to get Harl and Talia moving again on Watchtower - I need ideas, I can't follow big chats but anyone have anything?

Or any fresh ideas for nation? I know I have a few threads I'm in, but I feel like I need something original.

Mansion, I have some things to do that's going to be waiting on a few others.

XP pokings have been answered with mostly silence. As soon as k8 gets back I can get back on board with my plot and I'm waiting for tags back for a couple of things.

I need something. Anything. Come on peeps. Please? I hate these days. My body is fucked up, but my mind is way to active.

T__T

May. 1st, 2009 09:44 pm
sephirajo: (honestly-I didn't mean it)
Okay.

Next time I'm concerned about someone's erratic and out of character behavior I won't say anything. I won't tell anyone and I won't try to get a third party to point out something that often does need to be pointed out by a third party. A third party that can tell you things that someone close to the issue can't. I knew there was background stuff going on and though I was miffed about the whole thing I was more perplexed and worried. Having been in a similar state myself I knew third parties often HAVE to tell you these things.

I didn't want to hurt feelings, but feelings do get hurt when things are pointed out.

I now feel like an amazing asshole.

That and chemo night is making my corner looking damn cozy.

I'm sorry for hurt feelings, that's not what I wanted to do.

Ah, all of this and Chemo night too. Joy of joys. I'll now curl up in my corner, with my blanket for whenever I need Gallagher hugs.

Reminds me, Grandma and Grandpa's 54th was today. I need to email them.

At work!

Apr. 30th, 2009 10:35 am
sephirajo: (Z Grins)
Can you believe it? I'm actually at work. I'm feeling decent enough today. I'm still hurting, still in pain, but it's not the bone splitting madness that it was earlier this week.

I should write things. And catch up on posts - on my lunch for the latter, I think. But yeah.

*giggles*

Yay for having a not being a total painball!

:D

Right now, I will totally take any and all offers for rp writing too, since when I'm not in bone splitting pain I can actually think. Imagine that, being able to think.
sephirajo: (Naruto Do Me)
Random meme: If there is ever was something you've wanted to ask me, ask me here. Do it anonymously if you wish and ask as many as you would like. I will do my best to answer them.

That, and ficlet request time. I'm in a lot of pain and I can use the distraction. Most of you know my fandoms, and if you don't know feel free to ask. ♥

But request a ficlet of me and I shall write. The best I can.

Not a "real" update I know. So sue me.
sephirajo: (yahtzee gun at the head)
I'm hovering somewhere between 'fine' and 'depressed.' I have twenty dollars for the next two weeks, bills coming due and yeah.

We sent off the affidavit of beneficiary for Dad's last check and his bonus. It will be split three ways. Of course, we have no idea how long this will take and how long it will be. So, things are going to be interesting for awhile.

Chuck wants me to go on disability. I really don't want to. Then what would I do? Sit around all day and soak up my pain? Fuck no. It's not like his bio-polar disorder where it's bad enough to distrupt how you react to things sometimes...

It's not the same freaking thing. Chuck says I have too much pride. *sigh*

I don't know how we're going to get through the next few days. But I'll send Chuck to the food shelf for that... if we can get stuff like that... the rest of my money can go to gas. :/

I... am thinking of getting a new job. I love my job but if I could get something like at comcast with the pay being a bit more and a night-ish shift... that might be a bit easier for me? Maybe.

I want to try to get another job, but there's no way I could hold two jobs.

What I would love to do would be to go back to school, but I don't see that ever happening.

I miss Dad too... that's making me sick. It's amazing how much stress can fuck with both the lupus and the fibro. To the point where it hurts to wear clothes. The other peeps on my Flist who deal with this know just what I'm talking about.

I was going to say something else, but one, I can't remember what it was and two I don't want to worry anyone. The fits of just staring off into nothing are getting worse.

I want to try to write some of my original stuff before my brains go down the tubes completely. But I... can't stand my own writing. It's like it's missing something... Nothing ever seems right to me. I worry about my RP writing too, if it's up to snuff.

And now I'm just rambling. Long story short: I'm broke, paranoid, self loathing, slightly depressed and in pain.

I want to hear Dad use the line from Big Trouble in Little China once more. Just once more. Since he always adapted it to us...

Fang, you were not put on this Earth to get it.

Ah Dad. I really don't get it. So you, and that creepy old Chinese guy, were right.
sephirajo: (Because I have to)
Seriously, I will list my fandoms/rps and you will give me drabbles and things to do. I am seriously in need of distraction right now. My pain levels just shot through the roof and the stress is going to drive me nuts.

I will also take offers to RP though I will be slow.

Fandoms:

Star Wars (Original Trilogy, Prequels, Extended Universe cut off: Vong wars.) Characters: Any and all. But prefer Palpatine, Mara Jade, Jaina Solo.

Avatar the Last Airbender, Characters: Any, prefs: Azula, Mai, Ty Lee, Sokka, or events prior to the series (IE Kanna's travel south or the Battle of Ba Sing Se (1st) )

Marvel Comics (I CAN do canon, but I prefer the [livejournal.com profile] marvel_mansion versions of the following characters: Lorna Dane, Kate Bishop, Lucy Guthrie, Loki, Carmilla Black, Sue Storm-Richards, Luna Maximoff, Shamrock...

DC Comics (Pref the board canon for either [livejournal.com profile] jla_watchtower or [livejournal.com profile] dc_nation Characters: Harley Quinn, Talia al-Ghul, Stargirl/Courtney Whitmore, Volcana/Claire Selton, JD/Joker's Daughter/Duela Dent

Off shoot of DC: JL/JLU/Toon Titans and Batman the Animated Series are also accepted.

X-Project: Cammie (I'm not nearly so good as to attempt to write other characters...)

Final Fantasy X - the one I feel most comfortable in

Disgaea - pref: Etna, Flonne

Naruto: any characters - pref the Chuunin arc, but can go beyond that into things with Tusnade and the like. My cut off is when Sasuke left.

Sailor Moon: Any thing, any series.

Utena: Any character, any moment.

FLCL: Going out on a limb here, but any character.

Kenshin: Just about any character, any time.


So seriously. Hit me.

Short fics.
sephirajo: (yahtzee gun at the head)
At work, woo!

Still not feeling well, but I suppose I should be resigning to the fact that I'll never feel totally healthy again no matter what I do to try to get that way. Which seams a bit emo, but that's more acceptance than anything.

We're getting copies of Dad's cert. of death today. (These are also know as the 'croaking papers.') With that I get to skip in to my lovely foray of managing an estate.

Oh joy and rapture.

But moving on, I should write stuff. But I always say that. But on the other hand, I do like things to do. Hmm.

That and no one ever responds to my saying I'll do free drabbles. My writing isn't that bad.

Or purple. XD

But yeah. Stuff.

Blah. At least I'm at work. No lunch today, unless I want to deal with the milk that turned before the date on its carton and make oatmeal.

blurgh

Mar. 12th, 2009 01:10 pm
sephirajo: (Light of a fading star)
Home again. Hopefully feeling better tomorrow. I think it's a cold.

Someone paid for Cammie's account o.o I had found an account with three bucks on it and was going to do it today... well, that will get apple juice for Vivi. So, thank you very much for whoever did. Thanks. Just to say it twice.

In other news... I'm awake? I wish I was still in bed? Being awake is overrated. But, Chuck did find me a cool site to mess around with. So I'm happy.

I need something to do... so anyone want to do anything?

Or give me prompts for any of my muses? It's not like I can move around that much at the moment. Of course, moving is overrated. Maybe I'll play the Little Big Planet.

After I catch up on my email.
sephirajo: (Talia's moonlight shadow)
Home sick again.

Tired, dizzy and last night was... well... those of you involved in what last night was know. I blocked the one who kept trying to attack me.

It's all fun and games until you resort to stalking. Because, you know, how dare I think people should be friends first and people first and role players and pixel puppets second. x___x

I don't thrive on drama. In fact it makes me physically ill.

I'm tired, but I don't really want to be sleeping.

I'm also bored out of my mind.

I should try to write something on my own. Maybe.

I'm going to bury myself and hope this all blows over. I have things I know i have to catch up on and things I haven't done and yeah.

x___x
sephirajo: (I love hot sexy sith lords)
Sounds like the perfect day, don't it? Yeah, today's Valentines day and I'm still more or less stuck in bed. We're going to try to get a baby sitter and go out for a just-us dinner later, but we'll see how that goes. By we, I of course mean the hubby and I.

I'm still feeling really shitty, but we'll see.

And yeah. I'm also thinking a lot about RP Wank lately. I haven't been in much of it. I avoid wank like the plague, and I will tell you why.

You people think you have bad wank? )

And that's my two cents on the wank issue. This is non-game specific by the way. Or, I guess you could say this applies to every game I'm in. But more to one's I've been in longer.

And that's the end of that rant.

Now I will attempt to amuse my bedridden self. Possibly with Street Fighter or Soul Cal. Mmm, fighting games.
sephirajo: (Sparky Nahrees)
...well, it is!

Shut up, I know I'm a nerd.

Anyway, moving on. A t work, again. And given I have here two pictures, gifts from and am listening to a playlist that is 90% Dad-approved... yeah.

Stupid giving me most of my personality.

I might end up listening to my "spic" (I can say it, I'm part Mexican) music and J-pop all day just so I don't run into songs that hit the Dad button. The bad thing about having the same taste as one of your best friends, when he ups and dies just about everything you could possibly think of reminds you of him somehow.

I had to move my Loki toy off my desk.

Right now, I have Mecano on repeat. I don't care HOW I do it, at some point, I'd love to write something revolving around the lyrics for Hijo de la Luna. That song is so awesomely powerful.

I know I have to finish my Saito Hajime app for that one Kenshin game too, I have a bit of it done. Of course, that brings to mind Japanese culture which brings to mind Shougan, which brings to mind Dad...

...It's a never-ending cycle really.

Not even my penguins can save me.

I'm also up to my ears in files to be boxed, leaving me with a lot of free time, anyone want to distract me?
sephirajo: (Loki - It's good to be evil)
Since I'm in desperate need of things to get my mind off stuff even if only for a few minutes:

Pick one of the characters I write and I'll answer the following questions.

1. What would your character kill for? What would they die for?
2. What would they refuse to do under any circumstances? Why?
3. What do they dream about? [Either literal or figurative, specify please.]
4. What’s their biggest fear?
5. What single object would they be most hard pressed to part with? Why?
6. What is their fondest memory?
7. What is their worst memory?
8. What or who was were their most significant influence? Expound.
9. What do they believe makes a successful life?
10. What makes them laugh?
11. What are their religious views?
12. What is their greatest strength?
13. Do they have a fatal flaw? If so, what is it?
14. Who is the most important person in their life?
15. If they died, who would miss them most? How would they die?


You guys know my muses. Please. Gimme something to do. PLEASE,

ART YAY!!!

Jan. 31st, 2009 08:32 pm
sephirajo: (Toxic Yet Spunky)
I commissioned and got a picture from Chelsea, who is an incredibly talented artist.

And I got her to draw for me Carmilla and Nate Grey, hanging out and being all couple-y. Behold beneath the cut! A piece of art worth every penny! Why them? Well, over on [livejournal.com profile] marvel_mansion the two are a couple. So I wanted some couple like art of the two of them being all cute together. I think it turned great!

It's all fun and games! )

So very, very awesome.

Blargh

Jan. 26th, 2009 12:45 am
sephirajo: (shadow girls)
I hate D&D night. Chuck is always gone until bumble fuck in the morning and I can never sleep well with him not here.

I'm going to go to bed after this, but yeah.

Been watching Wolverine and the X-Men... I may have a ficbit to put up tomorrow. God, I love that show. I have another one that I finished up last night for an original character of mine after sitting on it for MONTHS. I'll post it later, I hope it turned out okay.

My pain killer prescription STILL hasn't arrived. If it's not in the mailbox tomorrow, I'm calling my doctor and seeing if I can't send my mom downtown to get it for me. My Rhumey works out of the same hospital she does, after all. It shouldn't be that hard for her to skip down to the other department and get me my freaking coedine. Because this weekend... lets just say ow.

Everything fucking hurts.

So bad.

I'm so tired. And some things have gone bad, but I'll talk about those later. Hopefully I get to go into work tomorrow.

But yeah.

Heh, the DDR for the 360? It has CASTLEVANIA music on it. I fangirled.

...The almost failed the stupid dance.

Goodnight, cruel world~!

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